What a day what a day...and its only 9:30! Within the first hour of being awake my limits had been pushed this morning. As I rode into work in tears, I just kept asking, where did my sweet baby girl go, where did I go wrong?! YES, I know every kiddo goes through this, and it's the fun that comes with having a toddler, right? But in my head I kept thinking, no not my kid, she'll never do that. Man was I wrong! I'm to the point where I'm not sure who is breaking who down!!
So This all started about two weeks ago...we are in the grocery store when Raes stops, turns to me and says "I need to go potty" (I'm thinking Awesome, she's really getting a handle on this potty training stuff) so I say ok honey, lets hurry and get to the potty. She stops looks at me and yells "NOOOO, I dont want to go potty" and goes into total melt down...I'm looking at her and wondering, ok what just happened here, we where doing so good, and you just told me you needed to go potty, right? So I grab my now screaming child off the floor and try to push my grocery cart to the potty. Where is Robbie when you need him! Finally we make it to the potty, she is STILL in total meltdown mode and not at all interested in sitting on the potty! What to do, what to do...I know I have to follow through here, but all I keep thinking is, everyone is staring at us, do they think I'm a bad parent because my kid is acting out?! (Ugh...I hate the feeling that everyone is judging me) So I make her sit on the potty while she's screaming, "I don't want to, I don't want to!!" I tell her once you clam down and put your tears away we can leave. This FINALLY works after a good 5-7 minutes.
Later that same day, we are off to Target for a bday gift for a party we have that afternoon. We run into our neighbors, who have a daughter the same age as Rae, they are the best of buds. Once we say our goodbyes, meltdown number 2 is under way. So here I am, back to everyone staring at us (feeling of being judged are back), and me looking at her like where is all this coming from?!?! I hurry and get everything we need for the party and us out of the store ASAP.
Fast forward to last night, I pick Rae up from school, where they inform me she's had a wonderful day. Great, I'm thinking, love hearing that - who wouldn't right? We get home, things are going well, Rae askes for some M&Ms, I tell her NO you've already had some, and dinner is almost done. The second N-O comes of my mouth she's in full melt down mode, I look at her, then to my husband, just in awe that she is behaving like this. So I pick her up, carry her to her room, where I inform her she can come out when she is done. This of course just makes her more mad! Needless to say this went on for a good hour, she is SO stubborn. The evening did end on a good note, she finally calmed down, and we read books and went to bed like normal.
This morning, she woke up in a great mood, even went potty on the potty, and got dressed with out a problem. As it was time for us to leave, she decides it's a great time to go one-on-one with me, saying "I don't wait to go!" I calmy explain to her, honey, today is a school day and mommy has to go to work. She continues "NO I DON'T WANT TO!" and is now in full melt down mode AGAIN!! So not the way I wanted to start my day. I give her a few seconds to get herself together, while I take everything we'll need for the day to the car. Back inside, Rae still crying, I pick her up screaming and kicking all the way to the car, all the way to day care, into day care...once inside I sit her down in teh corner and tell her, that once she's calms down she can get up. This, of course, just makes her more mad and the kicking and screaming pick up more. I tell her in a firm voice "Raegan, that is enough!" and repeat myself AGAIN, once you calm down and stop crying you may get up. Well it took me double the time for drop off and put me in full tears on the way to work. I never wanted to be the parent that is always yelling at her child. Raegan is JUST so stubborn, I think we are going to have a long couple of months ahead of us. Hope we can both make it! LOL
Such is the life of having a toddler huh! Still I wouldn't trade it for anything!
Another weekend has come ande gone. Robbie was out of town, he'd gone back to Omaha to catch up with family and friends. Rae got to spend a lot of wonderful time with Grandma and cousin Sabyn. On Saturday, we took the kiddos and joined in some Easter festivites, at the annual Northgate Easter Egg Hunt. Raegan LOVED the Easter Bunny, and could have cared less about finding all the hidden eggs, but she did find a few. We got some fun park time with Eleanor. The girls had so much fun running around, swinging together, and going down the tube slide on their tummies! She also got treated to a movie with Aunite and Sabyn, How to Train Your Dragon, which they loved. That's all they keep talking about. On Saturday I hosted my first Scrap mania, and I'd say it was a success! We had so much fun working on Easter cards. Can't wait to get another one set up!
